I have officially resigned from both design teams I was on.
Why? Well... I LOVE to stamp... and I do NOT like stress. I am self-imposing stresser-outer. How do you like that for a technical term? LOL I love sitting down, staring at my stamp drawers and choosing just the right stamp to make a card. I enjoy the whole process from choosing the card stock, ribbon and embellishments to addressing the card and sending it out to a friend to brighten her day. It makes me smile. :)
That is something I have not been able to do for some time. Being on a design team means that I have something on my "to do" list. I take my "to do" lists very seriously. It trumps all else... even if it means I don't get to have fun. The problem with this is if I don't feel like doing what is on my "to do" list, then I do nothing. The struggle of WANTING to stamp, but not wanting to use something I myself didn't purchase to stamp with causes me to not be able to stamp. That is NOT a good thing for someone whose hobby IS to stamp.
It was becoming a vicious circle of WANTING to stamp, feeling like I NEEDED to stamp something with stamps I had been sent and going back to stamping NOTHING or feeling guilt for stamping something other than what was on my "to do" list. The 2 companies I was on a DT for are great companies run by GREAT ladies, but I was left feeling stressed by the whole thing.
I was forced to take a long look at myself, my stamping habits and my heart. In the end, I decided that I was not on the design teams for the right reasons, and that the design teams I was on, were not right for me.
As soon as the e-mails were sent and I was able to release my inner "to do" list, I felt SO much better.
Now, I can get back to stamping for me. I will use what I buy and I will buy what I choose. :) I will share the things with you all that I absolutely LOVE and *hopefully* get back to ENJOYING stamping fully without being overwhelmed. I will be a happier, healthier stamper for it. :) LOL
What does that mean for the future? Will I ever be on a design team again? I hope to be. But, it needs to be the right fit for me. I know myself as a stamper and as a person. I am confident in my decision, but I am open to whatever comes! :)
In the meantime, I will continue to make samples for and teach classes at the local stamp store. :) I will continue to buy fun stamps from all the companies that I love. Most importantly, I will stamp MORE... and the stamping I do will be greatly enjoyed! :)